Heh. Should have taken a pic? Most ppl will say ‘SS or it didn’t happen’. (SS = screenshot, but in this case it just means a picture.)
The statements above was what hit me after I met him face to face. Then I catch myself, “Hmm, he’s a blogger. A famous one, one of my favourites, but still a blogger. Since when have bloggers gained celebrity status?”
Disclaimer: If anyone who knows Kenny, or if Kenny himself reads this, PLEASE DON’T TAKE THIS POST THE WRONG WAY. I respect those who blog, have no grudge against them, and am just writing this on an emotion / chord that struck me in an odd way.
I was walking out of the MCA 9-Point Party Platform after the last session I intended to attend, when I bumped into Kenny. Before that, I passed an area which was roped off for a ‘blog meeting’ (or something along that line). I was asking what was going on in that area, kinda guessing it was a bloggers meeting (I saw Nicole there), and was asked back if I was a blogger. I told her I blog, but only once in a blue moon, and she asked me again if I was a member of N-something (no, I can’t remember the name). No, I told her, and I was regretfully told that it was a bloggers only thing for those who joined that society. Huh? What? Wow… Bloggers now have celebrity status and have this kinda meetings? Wow… I wanna be a pro-blogger too…
Then the ‘I bumped into Kenny’ happened, and in the midst of that, I actually catch myself in thinking of them with a celebrity tag. Hey, another disclaimer here, I love Kenny (not in a homosexual way), his blogs are extremely entertaining and his travelogues have given me insight on what I should do if I do decide to take a trip to some-remote-area-backpacking-with-chicks-wanting-to-hop-along :) . But to put him on a celebrity status… kinda… wrong… in quite a number of levels (SORRY KENNY, DON’T EAT ME PLS).
What I feel, tagging a ‘celebrity tag’ to them will most unfortunately, bloat some egos. And for those who say ‘nay’, I’m sorry, but look at history. Man repeats history unless it becomes fatal. Then he (or she)’s not alive to repeat it. Putting on such a tag might destroy the core of a blogging society. We feel nice reading others’ blogs because we can ‘click’ with the topic, with views from the blogger coming from someone who is human, who isn’t scripted. Someone who’s in touch and in tune with the community will always interest us compared to those ‘up there’.
Blogging has been an interesting way to advertise something, with some big brands cashing into something that is made ‘by the people, for the people’. Those who reads blogs expect the blogger to give honest opinions on a product, as viewed by the blogger, not some trumped up marketing scheme to boost sales. In saying this, can bloggers keep to being impartial and be truthful on something? With sponsorship and advertisement time, bloggers might then take the route of THE advertisement space to be, and bloggers will the be put into a limelight which were formerly reserved for models, actors/actresses, etc (aka, celebs) 10 years from now, 20 years from now, when a new celeb class has emerged (the bloggerz… oooOOOoooo), can we look into the mirror and tell ourselves it’s us who gave them such a status? And can the regular bloggers actually look upon themselves and say “I blog for myself, with no editting and no scripting” and not “I blog for my fans / sponsors”? Think about it.
Maybe I felt left out, being a ‘once-in-a-blue-moon’ blogger and not in the loop. Maybe I felt jealous of the people there. Maybe, just maybe, I can see a bigger picture and feel that the road that fate twists will lead to pain and frustration in the future. Maybe?
A step further.
KW
Attended the exhibition last weekend, with the intention of learning new stuff on business and employment. It was held at the Putra World Trade Centre in conjunction with the iYouth ‘08 exhibition hosted by the Ministry of Youth and Sports. Being a 3 day thing, I attended quite a few seminars, selecting those of which I feel were of use to me.
Friday (18/01/08):
Business Funding 5c’s Strategy - useful, highlighting on the criteria as seen by banks and financial institutions on loan approval
Debt Management - not bad, highlights the need for financial management, but is targetting the people in debt and promoting the government institution AKPK
Memory Power: Forget No More - good course, trying to apply what I’ve learnt
Saturday (19/01/08):
Making Money and Adding Value Via The Internet - not bad, quite good advice, won a shirt (speaker was from google)
Money Works@Wealth Management - =/ Not as good as I hoped, nevertheless, there’s always something to be learnt, this guy was promoting himself and his company a lot more than teaching
Painting with your Brain: Mind Mapping & Creativity - not bad, but like the earlier one, is promoting himself and his business more than teaching the methods
Knowing What you Want and Getting What you Want - urgh. if i’m not motivated, then it might do me some good. but since i am motivated, bleh.
Legal Talk: Intellectual Property - Devolved into a mostly Q&A session, but I managed to learn a LOT from this session.
Sunday (20/01/08):
Entrepreneur Group Coaching: Turning Dreams into Deals - a change of speaker, and like some sessions, more of promoting company services
Striving towards Job Excellence - great talk, something that every EMPLOYEE should learn, with conflicting ideas with what I’m taught as my dad is grooming me to have more of an employer mindset
Managing Difficult People - good talk by the same guy as the job excellence one. good impression with great ideas on how to manage people, regardless of in the office or with customers.
Took notes on the seminars I attended, close friends who want to know what was said, I can send a copy of my notes (please pardon the messiness, it’s hopefully legible :P ) to you. In the course of the seminar, I met some people and of course, networked as much as I can.
A particular thing to note, while the MCA 9-Point Party Platform Exhibition was something that was of immense use to youths (things that everyone who faces real life has to learn), it was massively overshadowed by the Youth ‘08 convention that was going on. I noted that most of the youths around preferred to hang out at the ‘cool places’ there like the stage that took up most of the middle area on that floor, with people yelling, singing, and doing youth stuff. The whole of the lower floor was also reserved for youths, with things like shuffling competition and graffiti art going on down there. Kinda makes me sad to see the lack of enthusiasm from youths on what could be a great boon to their future being neglected. Heh me speaking like an old man? The sad thing is, I see most of the attendees to the seminars being held were old people (mid 30s++?) and of course, parents bringing their reluctant kids (less than 14 yo by my estimate). Where are the youths? Where are the people whom this exhibition was aimed at? Financial management, debt management, entrepreneurship… these are the topics that shape a youth’s future, and yet it’s something that they neglect?
Well, if partying and enjoying oneself is something that defines being a youth, then me, being a 24 yo guy (year 2008) would like to find the ‘youth counter’ so I can return my membership on a category that I find ‘not progressive’ to my future. Does anyone of you know where the ‘challenging young people’ counter are? I would really like to sign up.
A step further.
KW
Back in Malaysia! To my friends here in Malaysia, yeah I will be around till end of February, won’t be running off without meeting you guys at least once this holiday :D
Phone number here in Malaysia is 016-2122826. For those who know me well, this is an office phone number so I’ll be returning it when I go back to Australia. I should be getting a fixed line of my own when I get back for good!
Not very busy nowadays, so hopefully I’m able to post a bit more on this blog with reviews on stuff I bought and places I’m going to visit :)
Till next time…
KW
As the title says, focus. I’m losing it. Not literally speaking, my spectacle power hasn’t gone up drastically for the last 5-6 years. I’m talking about thoughts. I was walking back today, when I abruptly lost a train of thought suddenly with no provocation at all. Frustrating trying to trace it back.
Not the first case too. Lately, I find myself wandering off, chasing butterflies would be an apt term. When I was in high school and stuff, I loved Sherlock Holmes and took quite a few tips while reading his stories. At that time, I can follow a conversation and mentally pick up a lot of details on a person. You COULD say mentally undressing someone, but that’s rude, isn’t it? Lol. So yes, I mentally pick up a lot of detail on a person. In a 5 minute conversation, I can see if a person has had his / her clothes ironed, if there were any indication of food on the clothes, if a person has had a walk through a park or has been sitting a lot… that kinda thing. I’m the guy who tells you your zipper is not all the way closed or if you tucked your pants into your sock (or your skirt into your panties? Haven’t happened before though.)
Things are different now. I can’t focus. Having a 5 minute conversation means my brain picks itself up and walks away within 2 minutes. I catch my own eyes glazing and I mentally blank out from the conversation. Bloody irritating especially in lectures. I must admit though, it does not happen to all conversations (almost all lectures though, I’m sick of it). I’m bored of the topic? Maybe. But that line of reasoning points to me being increasingly selfish, yes?
Gah… Took so long for the ‘write page’ to load. God, I’m tired. 2 more days of exams, and I’ll be off playing games like there’s no tomorrow.
Hmm… The last post prompted a lot of emotions and deep thoughts. I have to admit and correct the previous post, my girlfriend did a lot for me. Of all the people that I have talked to, I know I can open up fully to her. Well, going through 5 years of being together does give an inordinate amount of trust, and I know my days have been brightened being with her. In a way, this post is sort of like an apology to her; I know the previous post hurt her a lot. Therefore, I would like to say:
“Dear, I love you. I’m happy that you accept me for who I am, for what I may be and for helping me melt the ice around my soul. I’m sorry for hurting you with that post, and I’m silly for not realising how important you are to me. I know we already made up, but please accept this as a sincere public apology for a comment I made publicly. Much love.”
:) Well… after my exams I might drop by the bookstore again and hunt for more Murakami books. And John Grisham. The next posts will probably be a bit more book reviews, hopefully without spoilers. (Mim, if you see the title, go read it first if you don’t want me to spoil it for you.)
Spent the night just reading the book. It’s 7.18am now, and I haven’t slept yet. Doesn’t sound THAT bad as I took a power nap before that hoping to go on with my project work later in the night. Project work my ass. I ended up following that book till the end.
The book was… sad. It was tremendously melodramatic. Some parts really touched me deeply; not the sort that makes you cry, but feel an insurmountable amount of sadness in you. And you know what? The things he writes does happen in real life. It’s sad because it’s the truth. You can actually connect to it that it feels almost surreal. As it is, it brings back memories, memories of me having a cold hard core. Long time ago. Times when it was hard for me to open up to anyone. Even those chat sessions with Mim and Sheryl… even those long phone calls with Ruji didn’t really open my doors up as much as I wanted to.
To be brutally honest? I could relate to the protagonist a bit. Not that any of my friends have committed suicide (well, there’s one, but I’m not that close to him and I don’t really know the story to be sure). In terms of having unrequited love? Well, not a stranger in that department. Everything I did however, anything I could have done, I still had that cold shell wrapped around places in my heart. Things I can never be honest with anyone with. To tell the truth, I felt envious of the protagonist when he could open his heart up to the woman he loved, at the place where the woman was recuperating. They actually encouraged everyone to be honest with each other in order to help each other.
I also envy him of his life, to be able to (enjoy isn’t the right word…) have deep and lasting relationships with people around him. His friends are few, he’s a loner, but those that he has brings him into their lives as much as he brings them into his. Maybe I’m just painting a pretty picture on how it’s happening. Maybe I’m just hoping for something more… tangible. More lasting in life. Maybe I’m looking for a long lasting friendship where I can have a close friend for longer than 10 years. Come to think of it, I’ve never had any friends I actually had the pleasure of ‘doing things with’ or ‘hanging out on lazy afternoons’. Haha. I don’t even have the pleasure of being approached by some girl while eating lunch just because I’m interesting.
I could even relate to him in the ways of being a loner. Back before attending university, I would always surround myself with friends. Now? I can pass a few days without talking to anyone at all. There was a time I fell sick here. No contact with anyone for a week. After that I felt introverted and unable to communicate well. When I did communicate, I often feel the words seem hollow, as if I’m unable to back my words with emotions anymore. Funny thing though, I feel… peaceful. Maybe I’m just trying to hide from the pain of losing friends as I see them move on in the world one by one, further and further away. It isn’t a pleasant feeling.
If my girlfriend reads this, she must be really angry with me. I hope she does not get me wrong though. She is my current source of encouragement. My ’shining light’ in the dark. I feel comfortable with her, and hopefully in time, when she can accept my innermost thoughts without prejudice or unhappiness (there’s a lot going in there, and it’s upsetting), I might be able to break down the walls of my castle and let it go.
KW
p/s: No I’m not about to commit suicide. I just feel highly emotional right now. And damn depressed. Maybe I need sleep.
pp/s: No… I just need a nice, warm hug.
Took a break earlier, went for dinner with Robert after his IELTS exams. We strolled down to Borders in Melbourne Central to look for some good books to read. He needed something that’s not too intensive, with a stimulating story. It was… extremely tough to find books like that. His level of English isn’t very high, so I had to find something where he could understand at least 70% of what he is reading without referring to a dictionary. Tried to introduce him to David Eddings’ books, but he isn’t interested in fantasy so I had to switch to fiction. Not a strong area of mine. Recommendations from Jonie were authors like John Grisham, but the English level that’s used is too strong a flavour for him. Nevertheless, he remembered a Japanese author who wrote a best selling book back in China, and we got down to searching for it. We finally found the English edition, Norwegian Woods by Haruki Murakami. I even bought the same book for myself, as well as The Rainmaker by John Grisham. After much encouragement, he bought a second book, The English Patient (can’t remember the author, but the book is famous).
Walking back home, we mused on a lot of things. Heck, we often talk about everything and anything that comes to mind. Even with his limited vocabulary, we are able to develop many interesting topics, with me trying to help him on his English. I’m constantly amazed by his tenacity on approaching the language. I, on the other hand, would love to learn Mandarin and Japanese. But unlike him, the need to master those languages is still far from needed, therefore the urge isn’t there. Que sera sera I guess… Will just need a good push in the right direction to actually get down learning them. After all, my girlfriend is pretty good in Mandarin, and I have a solid friend like him who knows both Mandarin and Japanese. The situation then will probably be reversed, with me asking him on advice and him bringing me around to procure good books to read :P Ah well, time will tell I guess.
Kah Wai
Spoke to Sheryl earlier… Shows her my blog and the impression i get from her: Boring. Really? Is it THAT boring? Admittably, my past few posts have been about tech stuff, “GUY” stuff as she will put it. I’m pretty sure it’s filled with facts, and I try to make my words as tacky as possible… Ah well.
Maybe my blog should be melodramatic. With a touch of emo-ism. An outlet for frustrations, instead of crying myself to sleep, or getting so hurt that i gotta rush to the toilet and slash my wrists just to find a reprieve from the horrible horrible world. o______O I really doubt I’m that kinda guy. I really hope I’m not that kinda guy. Emotional, yes… Probably more ‘touchy’ and more ’sensitive’ than other guys. *Shrug* Friends like Mimi and Sheryl who have been great emotional crutches during those high school days will probably know what I’m talking about. It’s not very different now though, just that I have a girlfriend to let loose those pent up frustrations (please get sex out of your head; grow up), someone to talk to just to mentally refresh myself.
Maybe I should. It seems refreshing while I’m typing this. I’m not extremely good in the language, but I believe my choice of words are tacky enough. A hint of sarcasm, a note of awe, a bit of bullshit… Hmm… Sounds like I’m high on something. Been there, done that.
Gah ok… My thought process is all over the place right now. Reasserting: I’m not high on anything. Just confused on what should I muse about. Some things should be kept private, y’know? Among friends I can talk stuff and confess about things, but on a blog, well, it’s not private. Some random just drops by and looks through my feelings, looks at my life.
Now I catch myself rambling. I sound like an old grandfather telling his war stories / time of glory again and again and again and AGAIN to helpless grandchildren seated around him. I’d better stop now before I actually HAVE glorious times to ramble on.
KW
Got a new laptop 2 weeks back, here are the specifications for the laptop that I bought:
- Intel Duo Core 1.6GH, 2MB Cache, 533 MHz FSB
- Integrated Stereo Sound
- 2048MB (2 X 1024MB) 533 MHz DDR2 SDRAM
- GENUINE Windows Vista(TM) Business with AERO experience (Had to upgrade, it was cheap - This will be the topic of discussion later after the boasting)
- 120GB SATA Hard Disk Drive
- Internal 8X DVD +/- RW Combi Drive wuth dual layer write capabilities
- 15.4″ Wide Screen XGA TFT Display with Truelife(TM): 1280 X 800
- 256MB NVIDIA(R) GeForce(R) Go 7300 TurboCache
Ok enough with the boasting. On to the topic. Wonder… errr… Windows Vista.
Honestly, when I first saw it I was very impressed. The AERO experience with the shadow backdrops and the ‘fogged glass’ appearance for the borders of any window open that wasn’t maximised, was genuinely beautiful. Even the taskbar had that feature, which was semi-transparent when there wasn’t any maximised window open. Microsoft outdid itself by adding a ‘widget bar’, the stuff you can get from Yahoo or Google widgets if you’re the type that heavily modifies the desktop appearance just to look good. The widgets also give good functionality and flexibility, making your desktop a true DESKTOP, complete with a clock, sticky notes, weather, calendar… I can keep going. The drawback for that was (for earlier Window versions) the amount of memory that the widgets eat into while running in the background. Trust me, anything that has a ‘3rd party’ tag to it will definitely be screwing up with memory. This time, the widgets are integrated into Vista, making the startup times bearable with all the antivirus, instant messenger, anti-spyware, firewall… blah blah blah going on in the background.
I digress. The topic that I would like to touch on is the bloody administrator / user status of bloody ‘wonderful’ Vista. It’s a veritable pain in the nether region. In addition to programs being incompatible to Vista, (as to be expected, remember the start of XP? Same shit, different day) Microsoft had to be very anal about programs accessing the system files. Granted, with today’s hackers, crackers, spyware, adware and all those warez you see on the internet, one cannot be too careful about what program and who is accessing your information, much less writing stuff into your system files. Therefore, Microsoft came up with the brilliant idea of, “Hey, why not make the administrator, who is SUPPOSED to have total control over everything, start off as a normal user status?” Now you’re thinking, hmm, the idea sounds good since I might screw up stuff that I don’t know about if I have admin status. BUT! The trouble starts.
Updating programs manually have always been a norm for programs that update themselves once in a blue moon. This contrasts a lot with anti-virus programs, which always update themselves at the wrong bloody time of the day, when you’re rushing up an assignment, or trying to access a program that eats into memory like a glutton. Nevertheless, the manual updates happen when the program finally ’sees’ an update on the developer server, and prompts you to install it else it’ll blow up in your face. In Windows XP, you happily press the update button, not caring if the update is really an update, or just your mom checking if you’re still alive. Windows Vista however will complain. It’s not the fact of it complaining or not, it’s WHEN it complains. Usually a file is downloaded onto your computer before any ‘patching’ or ‘updating’ is done. After the download, it proceeds to execute the file. Here is where the problem starts. At the end (sometimes beginning) the program gives an error message saying, “Hey, get lost and get the manager to come see me. You don’t have any privileges to do crap shit with this computer.” And there you are wondering, “Hmm, I’m the manager, what the hell is it complaining about?” Ahah. THIS is the problem I’m talking about when Vista ‘demotes’ someone down to user status when executing programs. Couple that with the frustration of waiting out the long tedious update just for it to screw up on the last percent.
A workaround? Yeap, Microsoft decided to be generous about it (after finding out they screwed up) and gave a ‘Run program as administrator’ option to users. Once a program is run as an administrator, any file patches or updates can be run without it complaining. Bottom line: If you run a program and it says, “Hey check it out, a new patch / update is available and it’s extremely important I get it”, click NO, and close the program. Right click on the program shortcut to obtain this:
Click on that, click on YES for any following irritating confirmation messages that crop up (DISCLAIMER: please check the messages first!!), program starts, and here comes Mr. Message saying that there is an update (again). NOW, you can click on “Go ahead, infect my computer with what not and let me get on with whatever I’m supposed to do.” The program should then update itself peacefully without interruptions.
Another weird quirk with Vista is the incapability of users to save any files (through programs) into the program folder. For example, if you work in Matlab (a mathematical software), the default work folder will be under the Matlab folder itself. Saving into that folder will give error messages saying you cannot save onto that folder. Picky isn’t it? This is an encouragement to use the ‘Documents’ folder (similar to ‘My documents’ for XP). I can’t say this is a bad thing, since it centralises all your information, therefore reducing the headache of remembering which folder did you save it to. Of course, you can compartmentalise your data in the Documents folder by creating subfolders in it and saving into them. Vista isn’t THAT anal to prevent you doing that. When you save files, you will be prompted for the location to save to as well as the file name. Example shown below. (NOTE: The example used PROBABLY wasn’t very good as it was defaulted to save in ‘My Pictures’ folder, which is default writable to, but this can be extended to any programs whose default folder isn’t ‘Documents’ or any subfolder in it)
By using “Browse Folders” you can search for the ‘Document’ folder faster:
Well, another roundabout way is to run the program as administrator (you can set that to permanent status by right clicking on the shortcut and fiddling with the properties) but you will get all those irritating confirmation windows that you may as well save yourself the aggravation and use my way instead.
Well, that’s Windows Vista for you. Seriously, I’ll wait for the first major patch that ultimately kills all these little annoyances before getting it for your system. By that time, quite a lot of programs will then be Windows Vista compatible that shifting over from Windows XP (or older) should not bring you too much grief.
KW
SHIIAAATTTT.
It’s not working. Damn thing decided to crap out on me ON THE FREAKING PCB after assembly. A criteria I didn’t meet? Yeap. It didn’t go past 10V peak to peak. It barely brushed past 5V p-p. Oh Em Gee. Screw it. Handed it up last Thursday, with my project report following it on Monday next week. I hope that my lecturer will accept my half-arsed reason for it not working. Not fluff and bullshit, mind you, but proper analysis on the problem and why the damn thing didn’t work. But still, I call it half-arsed reason because there wasn’t any proof of the failure attributing to the fact, it was more like I tied the failure to the fact through self-analysis and observation. Should work? I hope.
Btw, the project website is up, albeit a temporary one. It’s still ‘work in progress’, but it has my group picture as well as (soon I hope) the project description. Project group name = RC2.
Left to Right : Shang Wen, Me, Robert Li
Endeavour 2007
ECD 3 though, is moving towards the end (thankfully!) with the project on the final dregs for the hardware and software section. All that will be left then is the report, which I hope I will write in a state of mind that does not lean towards fluff. Or plain long-windedness.
Project work? Don’t ask. We had to scrap our 5 weeks of work today when the algorithm that we were using right until 6 hours ago had to be scrapped. Complications in the algorithm were the main cause, and we hammered out a simpler algorithm that wasn’t so memory hungry and might even be faster in the end. Now, we will be concentrating on our PCB design as a prototype as well as having it as a development board.
Ah well, hope I don’t fall sick again.
KW
